For 20 Years Now...

[Anonymous]

I have drank excessively.  Pretty much every single day.  Yes, my brain loves drinking!  However, everything else doesn't like my drinking...  Remember, it's often the "one is too many, and 12 isn't enough" scenario with me.



My Mother essentially drank herself to death at a fairly early age.  I am neglecting what I should be doing, mainly because of the drink.  I have become lazy, and am neglecting even the basics.  I don't want to be like my Mother.



It's hard though, because at the end of the day, everyone wants some 'relief'...  You want some 'downtime.'  Something to look forward to...  The drink is that to what I can look forward to provide that!



When personal hygiene starts becoming a chore, and when you shit diarrhea three times a day, I can recognize a problem.



I have fucked up jobs, and relationships also, with the drink.  I have also shitposted on forums for countless hours due to the drink also...  It's an easy thing to do.



It won't end well for me if I spend half my life drinking, even if I can try to keep shit under control...  I can keep it controlled quite well, until I can't.



I have so many responsibilities right now that I'm neglecting, and I also am not experiencing what life has to offer, since I'm only focused on really only one goal.



It's hard to explain to someone that doesn't like the drink, but I think I've had enough.  I wan't to emerge as Victor, before it manages to bring me down...

[Anonymous]

Have you ever contacted AA?

[Anonymous]

Have you ever contacted AA?

When my Ex left, I went to one meeting...  I don't do well with a room full of strangers (introvert), so I generally avoid under most circumstances.

[Anonymous]

Have you ever contacted AA?

When my Ex left, I went to one meeting...  I don't do well with a room full of strangers (introvert), so I generally avoid under most circumstances.

Are there alternatives to the group setting of AA?

[Anonymous]

Are there alternatives to the group setting of AA?

Not really, at that's because I think it must come from a personal decision to stop what you're doing...



A group can suggest things, but it's up to the individual to do what he/she needs to be done.

[Anonymous]

I really like drinking, but the negatives are now outweighing the positives for me...



Drinking makes me feel!

[Anonymous]

I also chain smoke when I drink, which isn't good, and a very expensive habit itself...

[Anonymous]

I really like drinking, but the negatives are now outweighing the positives for me...



Drinking makes me feel!

It doesn't really make you "feel" anything that you don't already....Getting fucked up just brings the emotions that are already inside you to the surface. Sometimes that's a bad thing...Your action here prove that.



You need to go to AA, group setting or not. Or you need to seek psycho therapy and not that socialist crap where you wait 6 months to have one fucking visit with some barely conscious hack, who is just going through the motions,  collecting government insurance money.

You're going to have to dig up the scheckles and get private qualified help....AA is probably the better alternative so get over your shyness. You're a big boy offering dick picks to strange women on the internet so I think you can handle talking about your problems in front of strangers.

[Anonymous]

Have you ever contacted AA?

When my Ex left, I went to one meeting...  I don't do well with a room full of strangers (introvert), so I generally avoid under most circumstances.

Are there alternatives to the group setting of AA?

There are, but the group therapy model costs the government far less than one on one counseling which is why they promote it. Why cure the problem on a case by case basis when you can get entire groups of people hooked on the notion they are utterly helpless until they've prostrated themselves before some benevolent power, eager to do their bidding?



AA is a menace to society, it should be outlawed.

[Anonymous]

I have drank excessively.  Pretty much every single day.  Yes, my brain loves drinking!  However, everything else doesn't like my drinking...  Remember, it's often the "one is too many, and 12 isn't enough" scenario with me.



My Mother essentially drank herself to death at a fairly early age.  I am neglecting what I should be doing, mainly because of the drink.  I have become lazy, and am neglecting even the basics.  I don't want to be like my Mother.



It's hard though, because at the end of the day, everyone wants some 'relief'...  You want some 'downtime.'  Something to look forward to...  The drink is that to what I can look forward to provide that!



When personal hygiene starts becoming a chore, and when you shit diarrhea three times a day, I can recognize a problem.



I have fucked up jobs, and relationships also, with the drink.  I have also shitposted on forums for countless hours due to the drink also...  It's an easy thing to do.



It won't end well for me if I spend half my life drinking, even if I can try to keep shit under control...  I can keep it controlled quite well, until I can't.



I have so many responsibilities right now that I'm neglecting, and I also am not experiencing what life has to offer, since I'm only focused on really only one goal.



It's hard to explain to someone that doesn't like the drink, but I think I've had enough.  I wan't to emerge as Victor, before it manages to bring me down...

Mel; try this. Simply tell yourself "not today" and do your best to live up to it. If necessary, try telling yourself "not right now" and work up to the "not today" bit by bit.



Now okay, it doesn't sound like much and yes, there will be times when you fall short of your "not today", fall off the wagon and wake up with a hangover the following morning.



When that happens, forgive yourself for failing, pick yourself up and tell yourself "not today" again.



Do NOT make the mistake of telling yourself "never again". This is tantamount to setting yourself up to fail. The more you fall short of the "never again" by falling off the wagon, the more negative reinforcement you are adding to your subconscious. You are setting yourself a goal where there is little chance of a Win and every chance in the world of a Loss. By telling yourself "not today" you at least get some positive reinforcement. Hopefully more wins than losses. You can work at it, chipping away at the years of habit and strengthening your resolve.



It may not work for you, but then again it may. I admit I was skeptical at first, fell off my own wagon innumerable times. But I kept at it and gradually the temptations became more and more manageable. Eventually the "not todays" became simples "nahs" as I was able to exert the required level of control over my addiction. It felt good to take back the power I once let it have over me, it felt especially good to know that I was the one who took it back.



Could I give it that power over me again? Sure, I guess.



But not today. ac_biggrin

[Anonymous]

I really like drinking, but the negatives are now outweighing the positives for me...



Drinking makes me feel!

It doesn't really make you "feel" anything that you don't already....Getting fucked up just brings the emotions that are already inside you to the surface. Sometimes that's a bad thing...Your action here prove that.



You need to go to AA, group setting or not. Or you need to seek psycho therapy and not that socialist crap where you wait 6 months to have one fucking visit with some barely conscious hack, who is just going through the motions,  collecting government insurance money.

You're going to have to dig up the scheckles and get private qualified help....AA is probably the better alternative so get over your shyness. You're a big boy offering dick picks to strange women on the internet so I think you can handle talking about your problems in front of strangers.

I don't understand addiction, but I know it's powerful..



I hope Mel makes an effort to control his addiction.

[Anonymous]

I like a thimble or two of barrel wash myself. But, I don't get hammered everyday like Mel does. I have a life though. I have a keeper of an old lady and a farm that is my passion.

[cc]

I have drank excessively.  Pretty much every single day.  Yes, my brain loves drinking!  However, everything else doesn't like my drinking...  Remember, it's often the "one is too many, and 12 isn't enough" scenario with me.



My Mother essentially drank herself to death at a fairly early age.  I am neglecting what I should be doing, mainly because of the drink.  I have become lazy, and am neglecting even the basics.  I don't want to be like my Mother.



It's hard though, because at the end of the day, everyone wants some 'relief'...  You want some 'downtime.'  Something to look forward to...  The drink is that to what I can look forward to provide that!



When personal hygiene starts becoming a chore, and when you shit diarrhea three times a day, I can recognize a problem.



I have fucked up jobs, and relationships also, with the drink.  I have also shitposted on forums for countless hours due to the drink also...  It's an easy thing to do.



It won't end well for me if I spend half my life drinking, even if I can try to keep shit under control...  I can keep it controlled quite well, until I can't.



I have so many responsibilities right now that I'm neglecting, and I also am not experiencing what life has to offer, since I'm only focused on really only one goal.



It's hard to explain to someone that doesn't like the drink, but I think I've had enough.  I wan't to emerge as Victor, before it manages to bring me down...

Melanie shit posted MANY times & got banned as a reg, so cannot prove he is himself in guest posting area



nor can he prove some guest's post is not his own



Sad   , but he did it to himself - It's called "repercussions"

[Anonymous]

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[Odinson]

One of the clients is gonna buy me a case of vodka..



6 litres of estonian pura..





Brings it tomorrow.